My little brother is going through a really hard time and I just worry about him so much! Last night he called me and was like can I come over and I was like yeah sure! So he came over and we just sat and talked.. He was trying to tell me what he is going through! I know he wants to open up to me but he doesn't quite know how to I think. Like I know he wants to talk about it but he is scared to talk about it! I just worry for him! I can't imagine what he is going through especially because he doesn't go to church and is doing it all alone.. You know I tell him all the right things and of course they refer back to the gospel because that is a huge part of my life and he told me that I always tell him the same things.. Then don't come talk to me then! I mean I do want him to talk to me, but he can't be mad for what I tell him! I am going to tell him he is worth something and he has a lot of potential and he needs to figure out what he wants to do with his life and where this life is taking him. So as he was leaving I got up to hug him bye an he said I don't feel like a hug from you and walked out the door! I told him I loved him and he said I love you back, but it hurt.. I just shut the door and broke down! I can't imagine what he is going through and his new girlfriend is making him second guess everything.. Because she had a baby and her baby passed away and he is mad that he just gave his baby away! I told him you did the best thing for her and she is going to have an amazing life and an amazing family to support her! I just don't know what to do and my heart goes out to him! If I could help him and take all the pain away I would in a heartbeat! He has so much ahead of him and he doesn't even realize it! I just hurts and I worry about him! I just have to let him know that I am always here for him!
I feel like he comes to me for a reason and he just strengthens my testimony everytime I talk to him because I know that what I tell him is true! From the bottom of my heart it is true! WE have a loving Heavenly Father who is always there for us! I couldn't imagine my life without him in it and I am lucky to not have to go through that! I will strive to stay close to him forever!! I wouldn't want a life without him because I would be lost! Satan is good and he has my little brother under his grasp and it kills me! I know he knows better and he has a good head on his shoulders he just needs to figure it out.. he is at his breaking point and all I can do is tell him it will get better and you are not alone! but apparently that doesn't help him right now! But someday he will open up and I am always here to listen to him and everything he is going through!!
P.S A week from today we are going to Disneyland!! something joyful to look forward too!!
I am so grateful for the friends in my life! Brittany is amazing everytime she just listens to me vent about whatever I need to vent about or get off my chest!! Regan is really good about listening to me as well and I am so grateful for her and all she does for me! I am thankful for Jake who went to the temple with me last night to just walk around so I could be close to my Heavenly Father and he helped me calm down and focus on something else! I thank him. I hope they all know that I am always here for them whenever they need help or are going through a hard time!! I love them so much!! <3 <3 <3
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