Gilmore Girls!!!

Do you have a favorite tv show???

I sure do!!

Gilmore Girls is my FAVORITE show ever!! It always puts me in a great mood when I watch it! I just love the relationship between mother and daughter which reminds me of my amazing relationship with my MOM!! I know I can always go to her with anything just like Rory can with her mom!! Its amazing! So I have all the seasons on DVD and Brittany and I are watching every season!! It is super fun and makes me happy!!! :-)

Car accident...

California was a bust!! If only we hadn't gotten in a car accident on the way! WE hadn't even left town yet.. We were drving on the freeway in traffic and the car in front of the car in front of me slammed on his breaks so the car in front of me slammed on their breaks and I didn't have time to slam on my breaks enough so we hit the car in front of us.. My car has a nice dent in the front of it EVERYONE is ok.. A little shaken up being my first car accident but I survived and will survive.. It was very scary and nerve racking but the gentleman that I hit was very nice and said it's ok.. Everyone is fine and that is all that matters. HE said things like this happen.. SO someday real soon we real try our luck again and go to California!! As for my car it will need to be fixed!!

California and Daddy's!!

WE are leaving for California today!!!! I am beyond excited to have a blast with my bestest friend and my lovely cousin!! I just want to leave right now!!! But I have to wait for them to come home from work... :-)

Now let me ask you a question???

Who need's a boyfriend when they have a dad to come to their rescue????

I sure don't! When in doubt I always call my Dad!! (if I can't get a hold of him I call one of my brothers) You see a blew a fuse in my car and so my daddy got in my car and fixed if for me.. I mean how lucky am I because I don't really know that much about cars so it was really nice of him to fix it for me!! Plus I lost my registration for my car so my sweet Daddy got me a replacement copy!! It was oh so nice of him!! I am so lucky to have an amazing Dad who is always there for me and is always there to cheer me up when I am sad! He is the best!!

Now my little brother was a little sad that I didn't call him so next time if he can help he is on my call list!! I am so lucky to be able to call on them as well and know they would always be there to back me up in an instant!! I just love my Family!!! They are the BEST!!!

Valentine's day or bust!

I hate Valentine's Day!!!

It sucks..

Like why would I want a day to remember how single and alone I really am!

No thanks, I think I will pass..

I also don't believe that one day a year we need to show each other how much we love each other. WE should be doing that everyday!! I know someday I will probably love the idea of Valentine's day but right now... its sucks big time.. I just hate being alone and the more I am the more insecure I get, but no big deal I will survive..

Can't change it!

Disneyland in 4 days!!! Can't wait to spend some good ol quality time with my best friend/sister/roommate and my wonderful cousin! It is going to be AMAZING!!

If I could take away the pain I would!

My little brother is going through a really hard time and I just worry about him so much! Last night he called me and was like can I come over and I was like yeah sure! So he came over and we just sat and talked.. He was trying to tell me what he is going through! I know he wants to open up to me but he doesn't quite know how to I think. Like I know he wants to talk about it but he is scared to talk about it! I just worry for him! I can't imagine what he is going through especially because he doesn't go to church and is doing it all alone.. You know I tell him all the right things and of course they refer back to the gospel because that is a huge part of my life and he told me that I always tell him the same things.. Then don't come talk to me then! I mean I do want him to talk to me, but he can't be mad for what I tell him! I am going to tell him he is worth something and he has a lot of potential and he needs to figure out what he wants to do with his life and where this life is taking him. So as he was leaving I got up to hug him bye an he said I don't feel like a hug from you and walked out the door! I told him I loved him and he said I love you back, but it hurt.. I just shut the door and broke down! I can't imagine what he is going through and his new girlfriend is making him second guess everything.. Because she had a baby and her baby passed away and he is mad that he just gave his baby away! I told him you did the best thing for her and she is going to have an amazing life and an amazing family to support her! I just don't know what to do and my heart goes out to him! If I could help him and take all the pain away I would in a heartbeat! He has so much ahead of him and he doesn't even realize it! I just hurts and I worry about him! I just have to let him know that I am always here for him!

I feel like he comes to me for a reason and he just strengthens my testimony everytime I talk to him because I know that what I tell him is true! From the bottom of my heart it is true! WE have a loving Heavenly Father who is always there for us! I couldn't imagine my life without him in it and I am lucky to not have to go through that! I will strive to stay close to him forever!! I wouldn't want a life without him because I would be lost! Satan is good and he has my little brother under his grasp and it kills me! I know he knows better and he has a good head on his shoulders he just needs to figure it out.. he is at his breaking point and all I can do is tell him it will get better and you are not alone! but apparently that doesn't help him right now! But someday he will open up and I am always here to listen to him and everything he is going through!!

P.S A week from today we are going to Disneyland!! something joyful to look forward too!!

I am so grateful for the friends in my life! Brittany is amazing everytime she just listens to me vent about whatever I need to vent about or get off my chest!! Regan is really good about listening to me as well and I am so grateful for her and all she does for me! I am thankful for Jake who went to the temple with me last night to just walk around so I could be close to my Heavenly Father and he helped me calm down and focus on something else! I thank him. I hope they all know that I am always here for them whenever they need help or are going through a hard time!! I love them so much!! <3 <3 <3

country dancing = love!!

I just love going country dancing everyweek!! It is so much fun!! So last night Brittany and I recorded a video of us dancing because we wanted to see what we looked like while we danced and it turns out we look pretty dang sweet!! We look really good which is amazing!! I just love going and learning new moves and having a blast with my friends while there!!! I just love dancing with cowboy jake too!! he is a good teacher and leader. It is super fun to dance with him!! He just loves this one move and he does it all the time but it is really fun!! A big thanks to Jake who danced with us for our videos!!

p.s 8 more days!!!!!

ahhhhhh!!!!

We leave for disneyland in 9 DAYS!!!! I am so excited!! I am excited to spend some quality time with my roomies and enjoy the wonderful California air.... okay actually to enjoy the beach and the happiest place on earth!! I love Disneyland and I can't wait to go. I haven't been in awhile and I just look forward to it!!

I am trying to blog more and it is kind of working and kind of not working.. I really want to share more about what is going on in my life!! So here is a little recap of last weekend!

Friday night cowboy jake asked us to hang out so we decided to go see country strong.. I felt like it was pretty good up until the end.. but oh well you can't like every movie.. cowboy jake hated it hard core.. he reminded us of that on the way home..

Saturday I went to work came home and went shopping with Brittany and Ryan.. Then
Britt and I went over to her friend Brandon's house for a little bit and then we watched pure country with cowboy jake.. Which was a fantastic move might I add.. We have been watching a lot of country movies lately!!

Sunday we helped Britt's mom with the superbowl party.. Partied with the family and then went to my families house and celebrated Regan's birthday and ate some yummy cake!! Then Cowboy jake and his cousin branton (who I knew before but didn't realize it until a little while later) came over and we played a card game.. I can't remember what they called it but it is a mix between pinacle and hearts.. it was really fun once we got the hang of it..

Monday I went to work and then came home.. Saw Britt off on her date and then layed in bed and watched the BACHELOR.. yes I like that show!! then I layed in bed waiting for her to come home. while I layed in bed I read a book.. It is called something like fate!! It was a cute little high school drama book.. I really quite enjoyed it.. Then she came home talked about her date and then we went to bed..

Tuesday I woke up early because Britt was sick. I helped get her things she needed cleaned up her vomit in the bathroom and then her mom came and got her and took her to the hospital.. She is ok now but was in a lot of pain at the time! Then she came home and I came home.. Cowboy Jake and Branton came over last night and we watch pure country 2 which was a big disappointment and then we watch 8 seconds!! from what I saw it was a really good movie!! Then we went to bed..

Wednesday.... well I woke up and now I am blogging.. going to hang out with my mom today and possibly go country dancin tonight if Britt is up for it!!

Life has been really good these last few days!!! Gotta love life!!

life is hard sometimes..

I hate how life can be hard sometimes and that SATAN makes it that way for us! He knows how to destroy us and it just isn't fair! He takes what I am slacking in and runs with it and makes me feel miserable about myself.. I hate that he does this to me because he has me second guessing myself and who I am as a person and that just isn't right because I do know who I am! I am a DiViNe DaUgHtEr of God! The Savior is my rock and my foundations. I do need to strengthen my relationship with him BUT I do know who I am and what I deserve in this life. It is hard because I get stuck in these little ruts and I don't know how to get out of them, but then it hits me like a rock. I have to turn to my Savior and come unto him to help me with what I am going through. He is the only person who understand truly what we are going through because he has gone through it all for us! He died for me that I can live with my Father in Heaven again!

I had a really nice deep conversation with a good friend of mine and he told me I am awesome and I should never second guess that and I know he is right! I am awesome and amazing and I derserve so much!!

Now I hate that feeling like I am not pretty enough for skinny enough because the world has set this standard that girls have to be super beautiful and super skinny and it just isn't fair! Because guys don't like girls my size. I don't think I am fat by any stretch of the imagination, but I could lose a few pounds to feel really good about myself but I am beautful and someday I will meet someone that is worth it all for me and I will be everything he wants! I know it sucks waiting for that day but I know that it will happen someday! I hate that Satan makes me feel this way about myself as well. He knows how to tear me down, but I won't let him anymore!! I am strong!!