thoughts...

oh my gosh i am so thankful to have such amazing parents!!! i guess i never really understood how much i relied on talking to my mom everyday until she was unreachable over the weekend.. it was really hard, but i finally got over it.. i talked to my dad like 3 times on saturday!! He tried his best to cheer me up and it worked.. it is so nice to have a dad tell you that someday you will find someone and you are cute and have a great personality and someone is out there for you. okay so v-day was a horrible day for.. i cried like all day.. untill i talked to my mom and then i was good. thats when my dad tried to cheer me up.. i wasn't necessarily sad becausei didnt have a valentine but because i just felt so alone.. i had no one.. my roommates and their boyfriends ignored me all weekend and it really make me sad and alone. i mean obviously i am a big girl but at the same time i don't like being ignored. especially when they are at your apartment all weekend long.. that is when i t makes me very upset. i was talking to molly about it and brandon which is michelles boyfriend didnt say one word to me until molly got home and asked if she was from phoenix and i was like actually i am the one from phoenix and i am actually from mesa.. he was like really?? i was like yeah. i got back in my room and molly was like is he seriouslyn just now asking you where you are from.. i was like yeah.. she was like wow.. i was like that was how is was all weekend long.. she is like sorry kay-kay.. im like its okay.. she feels bad for leaving mebut i don't want her too.. she is sick so i am hoping i don't get sick.. i am drinking lots of calcium and vitamin c so i can stay healthy and washing my hands and such.. i do not want to get sick.. not at all.. but anyways.. pretty much a horrible weekend.. but its all better now that molly is home and i have a friend in the apartment.. although i am enjoying talking to ashley these days.. she is a great girl.. she talks like she is an older person. she always says, "haven't the foggiest".. and it cracks me up everytime.. haha i love it!! i hope i pick up on that line... mollys family says she is crazier then she left and apparently thats my fault.. oh well. and ashley said i was just not myself over the weekend and i said i know i just didn't know who to be crazy with.. they were like ya i know... oh well more later..

college update...

Okay so this week has been good. I haven't been to overwhelmed with homework. Just overwhelmed with tests for all of my classes.. It was a big test week.. i didn't do to hot on some of them but what can you do i am still trying to figure out my professors.. so its getting there.. I am feeling happier not so depressed.. I have been praying a lot and its been helping a lot!! Its amazing the power of prayer. Me and Molly spent the day together yesterday and it was so much fun!! we went shopping!! it was nice to get out! We had a balst and then we went to a basketball game.. i got to catch up with my old friend Leesa Ricks. It was so great to get back in contact with her. She is a sweet sweet girl. It was lovely hanging out and getting back in touch! This week shouldn't be to overwhelming i hope!! i keep my fingers crossed. although i am sad that molly is leaving me for the weekend but i am very happy she gets to go home.. i am sad not to be going home but at the same time i am worried i would not want to come back if i went home now. it would not be a good thing.. i am super excited to see my family in april though!!! woot woot!! it will be super fun to hang with them and then when i come back to college my best friend HEATHER will be here which makes me super excited!!! i am so happy for that.. we will have a blast!!! its amazing.. i talked to Emily today on the phone and cried because i miss her so much.. she is growing up so much and i am not home for it.. it makes me sad.. it was hard to cause she is like i really want to see you.. I said i can't come to you i don't live in AZ right now. she was like why not? i was like i am away at school.. she is so sweet and i can't wait to see her in APRIL!!! she is a sweet sweet girl and she blows my mind everytime i talk to her!! amazing girl!!

The weekend...

Okay, so this weekend was kind of a depressing weekend.. I missed my family very much so.. But I got down on my knee's and prayed to my Father in Heaven, and I felt so much better after praying to him. It still amazing me the power of prayer.. I am constantly kneeling down and praying.. It has definately strenghthend my testimony on prayer.. Me and Molly like had a melt down on friday night we really wanted Apple Juice and Chocolate and we could not get it anywhere.. we wanted to crawl in our beds and cry. but we didn't we watched movies. We went to the store and stocked up on both so hopefully we will not be having any melt downs anytime soon. but who knows we get pretty whiny at night.. We laughed a lot and a lot of really good talks.. I really appreciate all she has done for me while being away from home... She is just as crazy and weird as me which I absolutely love about her!! I am feeling good and am ready to get back into school and get busy again.. who knows what next weekend will entail.. I really don't want molly to leave becuase that means i am going to be all alone while she is gone because michelle has her boyfriend coming and is going to want to be with him all the time and ashley has matt.. So i will be just laying in my bed watching chick flicks all weekend long.. sad day but oh well.. no valentine for me..